Here is my story about healing.
It was when I was 14 years old. One day, I woke up and found that I could not lift my right arm because of pain. I had no idea why it happened. I had been a healthy child except occasional sleeping issues.
I went to see doctors, but they could not find any physical abnormalities. I went to see physical therapists, but they could not find the exact cause although it seemed it was related to a neural function. As it didn’t get well for more than a month, it seemed it would never get better. It must have had been difficult time for my parents too. They decided to take me to a healer. It was my first time to see a healer, and perhaps it was the day my life has changed. It was 1992.
I remember the healer meditated for a short time and put his hand on my head and then right shoulder. He softly pressed the exact point that hurt and asked me whether it is the place or not. I just could nod, meaning yes. I could not reply appropriately because of the surprise. At the same time, I was profoundly relieved.
Every time I received his healing, my shoulder got better and eventually healed. I should have noticed that I had attuned to the healing energy. I often felt that I could project a sort of energy outside of my body. It was like I could extend my tactile sense over my physical body and touch something. Now, it is a science fact that we are beyond our physical body as we are the one interacting energy. But at that time, for a 14-year-old boy, it was difficult to think in that way. My physical body was the end of my existence. So, I just had kept the bizarre feeling in me.
My ambition to become a healer had been growing, but I tried not to think about it. I felt it was unrealistic, and also the idea made people nervous. I should study well at schools, go to a good university and get a good job. That would be everybody’s ideal life. Yes, I tried to follow it, but it seems that my real intention always brought me back to my path.
Once, I asked a healer whether I could be able to be a healer. I was around 21 years old at that time. I remember she told me that I should get more life experiences and know whom we really are. She suggested me that being a healer at the age of 50 would be a good start too. She insisted if I really can help one person, it’s worth to devote my whole life to a healing activity.
I think I could not take her advice seriously. I thought I could be a healer right away. I thought it would be only techniques that I needed to learn to be a healer. I continued joining classes and attunements from several healing institutions to be a certified healer. But the truth is that I didn’t practice healing to people. I wanted to be a healer, but I hesitated. I think I was too young. I could easily give up my dream at an inconvenient time. I had done things as many young people would do. I made many mistakes, and those led me to experience this human life very well.
Life is total suffering on one side. We always want to be happy, but it is quite difficult to achieve it. That’s why we are unhappy and still seeking happiness. The healer’s advice was right. I needed a life experience to realize my consistent intention to heal people and improve the quality of life by learning compassion to others through my sufferings.
Every time I have a difficulty to move on in my life, the same question is on my mind. Is there anything that I have not completed yet?
Suffering from health issues, a considerable debt, a divorce, being an illegal stayer (not my mistake though but it was a resulf of cause and effect), being sued, being unemployed, and more things happened in my life. But now I know all the difficulties have been conditioning and correcting my path for my real purpose of life. Once I have been on the healer’s path, all the problems have been solved like magic. That proved everything.
At the age of 33, I decided to learn healing from scratch. I have restudied in Japan, the U.S., and Europe as much as I can. I could get to know talented healers and masters there, and the connection becomes a treasure of my life. Healing becomes not only a way of healing a person but a way to improve my life.
I know I still have a thing to do in my life. It is to spread what I have learned. I need to give it back to society. It is not only for healing body and mind. It is even much more. It worked in my life, and I am sure it works for the others too.
So, here I am.
I think we know how to be happy although we cannot start the path for many reasons.
We just start it now. That’s all.
Best wishes,
Atsushi Kubo

